3rd time lucky...

So I'm pregnant again, 3rd pregnancy after a missed miscarriage and a normal miscariage. I'm nearly 6 weeks, had light brown discharge at 4 and half weeks. Went to doctor. Got tested. Was fine. Then this week, light pink when I wiped twice n then no more since.

Constantly panicking over everything... I have no symptoms at all... my boobs dont hurt or anything but they're really lumpy!! All I want is a God damn sign that this baby is gunna stay with us. This is the furthest I've gotten yet so I'm hoping this is the one. I just cant get excited until I know this one is staying with us... i feel so evil for that but i dont want any more heartbreak.

Can people tell me loads of happy things and positive stories or positive statistics.

I want nothing more than for this to be THE ONE.