When I was 15 I started dating my first “real” boyfriend. He was older than me and called me pretty and of course I believed him. Well pretty quickly he wanted me to start doing stuff with him. He started begging for sex (I was a virgin). I made it clear I wanted to wait until I was married for sex. He kept making me feel bad “good girlfriends give their boyfriends sex”. On prom night I considered it but started freaking out and backed out. Well about a week later he got me alone, and forced himself on me and started doing it. No matter how much I cried and told him no, to stop, he wouldn’t. After that, every single time I saw him he did it 2-3 times a day. If I told him no, he would give me the silent treatment or make me feel bad until I gave in. I couldn’t leave because I was so afraid I’d go to hell for premarital sex (I had that drilled in my head from my extra Christian family). Finally I got the courage to leave and he threatened to kill himself and he ended up stalking me for 5 years up until my now husband and I got engaged and my husband blasted him on Facebook.

I’m just now starting to get the courage to talk about what happened. I know I wasn’t drugged or beaten by a stranger. But I need others opinions. This is considered rape right? It’s just so scary to come out and say I was raped.