I guess I’m writing this because I don’t have anyone or anywhere I can vent other than here anonymously.

My husband and I have been married for 3 going on 4 years. We have known each other since we were in middle school. We were suffering from infertility for 2 years until I found out from my OB that I had cancer cells growing on my left ovary. So I decided to get it removed which makes our chances even lower to conceive naturally. Later on we decided to adopt a group of 3 siblings and I do not regret it one bit they are my world. Then here comes this cute little baby girl into our lives and she is a perfect addition to our family. We are going to adopt her very soon as well.

My husband and I suffer financial issues and it stresses us out. He gets to come home after work to take a little time to himself before the kids get home.

After a very long day of work I pick up the baby and kindergartener from daycare and the older two walk home from the school bus stop. But as soon as I get off of work there is no break for me. Mommy’s never have a break and I understand that not am I complaining about being a mom. But now it’s starting to get to me that my husband is starting to get lazier and lazier everyday while I’m busting my ass for our family.

He’s starting to also get a little aggressive with me like grabbing me too hard, slapping my butt too hard when he feels the need to correct me, and pushing me in-front of the kids. That to me is grounds for a divorce.

But then I look at my kids and how happy they are with us as a family, a family they wish they had all their life and I still continue to stay in this marriage. I’m just not sure how much I can take anymore. I’m scared it’s going to go too far one day but all that we have as a family stops me from leaving with the kids.

What would you guys do if you were or if you have been in my situation?