Just need to vent a little here...

I’m 28 weeks pregnant, and have a wonderful 16 month old monster. I work full time as a assistant store manager in retail, and my husband stays with our daughter while I’m at work.

He’s taking GED classes in the mornings while I take care of the home and baby, (she wakes up at about 630-730) and then when he gets home at 12pm, I get ready for work really quickly and start work at 1pm. I get a 30 minute lunch break, get off at 930 and home by 10pm.

About half the time he has dinner ready, half the time he waits for me to help out. That’s fine with me, our daughter is exhausting. Lately she’s been awake when I get home from work, which means I feed her, give her a bath and put her to bed. Then I can think about feeding myself.

It’s 1130pm right now, my daughter just crawled into bed. I’m laying down in tears from exhaustion, and feel like there’s no end in sight and it’s just going to get worse when my son gets here.

I love my daughter, but she’s been going through a phase where if I walk away from her, or even get up like I’m going to walk away she throws a full on, melt down, tantrum.

I can’t even calm her down half the time, I have to let her calm herself down otherwise it gets worse. I feel like a failure.

We decided last December my spouse would quit his job with Walmart, because child care was so damn expensive for us working in retail, so we had to have a private babysitter which cost $10 an hour. So we’ve been living off of my pay alone, which is hard. We live paycheck to paycheck and usually end up behind on bills until I bonus (extra $100-200) and catch up again.

Now my husbands brother (29 years old!!!!) has NO place to go and is sleeping on an air mattress in our living room (we have a 2 bedroom townhome). I’ve made it clear I don’t want him here, but I keep getting guilted by the mother in law because he has no place to go. She’ll say things like “well I’ll just have him sleep in my car then.”

She lives with her boyfriend who she won’t even attempt to ask if he can crash there.

I never get ANY alone time unless I’m in bed; and even then I just want to sleep.

My husband is feeling sex deprived, and I get to hear all about that but I literally am so SPENT on being a mom, a wife, a manager, and dealing with his brother being in the house. But any time I try to vent to my husband about his brother he says something like, he doesn’t do anything wrong, he doesn’t have anything. And I told his mom when I said (2 WEEKS AGO) that he could stay for a couple of days, that we are already struggling with food, that we didn’t have enough to feed him as well.

But guess whose eating dinner with us?? And drinking the sodas we buy for my husband?

I love my husband, and I know he’s doing the best he can with the house, and taking care of our child, but when I get home he gets to relax and play his games, and on my days off it’s his day off from watching our daughter, which means I get up with her and he sleeps in.

I just feel like I can’t do this anymore, but I don’t know how to express that to him without him turning it around.

TLDR;

I love my family, but this is really freaking hard. I need it to get easier already. I’m so tired.