I’m gonna try to make this short. . I have a 2 year old of my own and started babysitting another 2 year old about a year ago. His mom got pregnant again and asked me if I would be up to watching the baby too. I told her I would give it a shot but if it got to be too much I would tell her, and she agreed.

Well her son started being really difficult for me down the road, he started hitting really bad, he’s mean to my dogs and he also throws a lot of tantrums. Him and my daughter fight a lot. Now I have her newborn too and it is miserable for me. The baby being a newborn wants to be held and eat allll day, but that’s so so hard with two other kids. The toddlers act out when they don’t get as much attention. And I’m 17 weeks pregnant now and so tired. 😭 & mentally drained.

My house stays messy during the day, it drives me nuts. But I don’t have enough hands to take care of it and three kids at once. I spend my free time in the evening cleaning and playing one on one w my daughter. I feel like I gave 3 kids a fair shot but I dread each day now. The mom took a job In my town (she lives 30 mins away) just so that I could be the one to watch the kids. I feel like I have to tell her I can’t do it anymore but it’s going to be a huge inconvenience to her. I wish I could keep helping her but I can’t. I will offer to watch them through this month which is about 3 weeks. I hope that’s enough heads up. But it feels awful