Judge me if you need to, but please answer with an open mind!

December 2018, I came to the realization I needed in patient treatment. My mother was there to support me as well as my soon to be child’s father. I say that because after 1 month of treatment, I opted to go to a sober living home for women! Living there, everyone is to get a women’s wellness exam and that is when I came to find out I was pregnant. I conceived just before going to rehab so baby was not effected at all. Yes, I was on birth control for ovarian cysts so I was not seeing my period anyway. Fast forward, I spend 6 months at the sober living home and am ready to come home.

Now, this is where it gets interesting. Before going to rehab, my mother and I were in a car accident where she was driving and I was in the passenger seat. However, my mother ended up at fault so her insurance did not pay for her but paid for me. The check was $5,000. The check of course was written out to me but this was the week of me going into rehab. Me being me, I told her to take $2,000 and leave me $3,000. She agreed and we set up with the bank that she’d be able to cash my check because by the time it would’ve arrived I would be in treatment. I trusted her.

Meanwhile at rehab she’s visiting me, and at the sober living home she’s visiting me and never mentions the money but neither do I because I’m just happy to see her. One day, I tell her I’d like to go to the MVA/DMV to pay tickets on my vehicle and put the money from the check into my savings, you know..be responsible! I’m talking about lists of things I’d need to purchase for the baby, etc. and she’s agreeing with me the whole time! Come to find out, she spent the whole $5,000.

I don’t know how many times I’ve shed tears to this. So far, she’s “paid back” $1,500” which EVERYTHING went directly to my baby’s necessities.

We’re behind in rent and I still pay half the rent by working while I could - I’m due any day now so I’ve had to stop AND my pregnancy is high risk. Amongst all of this, I was diagnosed early on with type 2 diabetes.

Needless to say, I’ve been sober since December 2018, have level blood sugars, and am trying to do the next right thing one day at a time but today, I broke down! I know the only person I am in control in is myself so expecting and trusting someone is hard for me to do — but why steal from me and on top of it all, where did the money go?! She keeps giving me the run around and I just don’t know what to do!

So, am I wrong for feeling some type of way? How would you go about this now?

Thanks in advance..