Here are the details. Im 31, i have three kids currently (a 9 year old boy, a 10 year old girl, and a 2 year old girl). Im currently 14 weeks and 2 days pregnant. My ...boyfriend is 25 and has a 3 year old girl and 6 year old girl his ex wont let him see because shes still bitter of their break up and does not like him at the moment. My current boyfriend and i were friends for a littlw over a year before we recently (almost 4 months ago) decided to get into a relationship

Me and my boyfriend planned this pregnancy.

Unexpectedly, we became pregnant pretty fast (1st try about 1 month after we moved in together). Shortly after, a lot of unfortunate things happened, he lost his car for a pricey unpaid parking ticket from 2015, and then, my car broke down. We live in a very small hot and empty town in the middle of nowhere with no transportortion system, no friends, and no family, needless to say, one needs a functioning car to be able to make a living and go to work in any city (most cities are an hour or more away)

Also in this new county i live in, i havent been able to get prenatal care, my primary doctor is very unorganized, and without a cat, its hard for me to get to her office anyways, and no one answers the phone no matter how many times i call the office. She said she would make a referal for me to see an OBGYN but it never came in the mail, so ive called just about every obgyn that is near to me, so i can set up an appointment myself, and ALL of them said that i have to have a referal. My docs office called me back after 2 weeks and told me that they dont need to make me a referal, that i could set it up myself, but i explained to her what all the obgyn offices said, and she still told me that i didnt need 1, and that she could try to put in a referal, but it would more than likely get kicked out. So 🤦🏽‍♀️ im basically taking this as another red flag that i need to get an abortion

Neither of us can make a living or provide for my kids in this crappy middle of nowhere town, i cant even get prenatal care, we cant have release or escape from stresses cause theres literally nothing out here, the little money we had that we borrowed from people (400 or more) we put into My car, and everytime , it ran for 3 days before breaking down again,

Weve also been in arguments because im not the same because of these hormones, im distant, i dont show affection to him, i have no sex drive, and those are things he wants and he wasnt expecting my hormones to make me like this. ......hes also frustrated that he cant help me, and frustrated that i cant help him. Both of our cups are empty so ,neither of us can help eachother and that pisses him off. Sometimes, during these arguments, he will say get an abortion (4 arguments so far) then when he calms down he tells me he disnt mean it, he deeply wants a son with me and that he was just angry and says stupid shit when hes angry that he does not mean, he says this EVERYTIME after ....but once befor3, hes told me he would support any decision i make. I KNOW i want my tubes tied whether i get an abortion or not, so, he knows if he wants more kids in the future, and if i dont have this child, im NOT having anymorr, so he will have to get a surrogate.

So much has been said and done during these few arguments these past few months that, i think i see him in a different light now, but at the same time, i know im not myself right now, because of these hormones and very difficult hole im in.

What should i do!? Heeellllp

*edit* when we planned this pregnancy, both of us were in a great spot, both had been doing great, both had cars, both were working, and we were goimg on family outings and happy. Things just quickly and unexpectedly took a huge nosedive because of the car situation and being in the middle of nowhere with no family or friends