Bipolar 16 UnMedicated And Pregnant
Okay so I'm about 6 weeks along according to my lmp. Ive been sooooooo fucking moody lately. And I know its like a "normal" thing but my mom keeps telling me " QUIT BEING A FUCKING BITCH YOU ARE PREGNANT NOT DYING YOU KNEW WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF YOU WAS UNPROTECTED" and its honestly fucking extremely annoying because for one IM BIPOLAR AND OFF MY MEDS WHICH ON A NORMAL NON PREGNANT DAY IM A BITCH IN THIS SITUATION for 2 we are sleeping in my old rude ass grandmas hot ass house. Its litterally always 84 degrees in here no matter what the temp is outside. And I sleep in the living room and she turns the "air" on only when she goes to bed and she literally turns it down to 79. Like wtf is that gonna do. So its hard as fuck for me to go to sleep bc its so hot so i normally don't get to sleep until like 2-3 and she gets up every fucking morning at 5 am like CLOCKWORK and turns the tv up to 50 LITERALLY FUCKING 50 mind you i have to keep it under 15 while she's in bed so she gets up BLASTS THE TV slams shit around because she has that shakey disorder idk wtf it is but she can barely hold shit and opens uo all the windows and doors and LETS MY FUCKING KITTEN OUT THE DOOR all at 5 am. And its not like I can say anything bc im literally homeless and this is her house plus she's old and she goes to bed way b4 i do. Like i get it but just because i get it doesnt mean I aint still fucking irriated by it. Im going thru a break up from a whole ass abusive relationship plus all that shit and my mom judt cant understand why I " wont grow the fuck up and deal with it" well man im trying to but shit this is a stressful ass situation. I literally wake up every fucking day and just start crying because im so hot. I hate this. It wasn't so bad b4 i was pregnant bc i took my meds. But shit now I wanna fucking kill myself and everyone in the house just bc its fucking hot. Ya know? Idk. But anyways the point if this was to rant/ to see if anyone had any tips on how to control the rage and crying and how to not wanna flip every 5 mins. Thanks.
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