Yesterday we set the date for my induction for August 23rd. I have gestational diabetes and baby is measuring big. Which I expected. My other kiddos were all big and born around 38 weeks without me having gestational diabetes. That's not what I'm stressed about though. My kids start school the 26th. One of the kids being my 4 yr old and his first time ever in a school setting. He never went to daycare. Stay at home mom life. I'm worried I'll miss it! That's one of my biggest worries. Now, the other big whammy...a few days ago my mother found out she had lice! I've made it 12 years of being a mother without ever having encountered these awful critters. Sure enough a few weeks ago my mother had taken my eldest out and about shopping and to the movies... so we all have lice now!!! I have severe anxiety and OCD about 2 things in particular for no reason...I clean things and am a germ freak. My 2 biggest irrational fears from that are bed bugs and lice. Idk why, but they just have always freaked me out with just the thought. To where it sends me into a straight panic attack. We all have been treated and I have been coping with this by focusing on the care of my kids to make sure we get rid of these. Constant combing and natural remedies until the next treatment time. I just don't want to bring baby home or even deliver him yet knowing my house has encountered lice. I'm emotionally exhausted and just feel like there isn't enough me and mom care to go around. The constant worry and cleaning, although satisfying, is draining the shit out of me and I just want this to go away. I want to be a my son's first day of school. I've never missed any of my babies first days. I also just want to not worry about lice ever again and this incident has made my crazy fears a million times worse. To the point where I don't want anyone at the hospital or visiting us at home until I know the lice are gone. If you've made it through my jumbled together, all over the place post, please just tell me I'll get through this. My emotions are high and I appreciate any thoughts or positive insight on this lovely life stuff.