Help! 😭😭 perineal tear

I gave birth on Monday and ended up with a second degree perineal tear. Now I am in excruciating pain trying to poop. It is so bad that I would rather go through labor contractions again. TMI, but It feels like it’s stuck in there almost coming out but not quite, and whenever I push I pour out blood (vaginal blood) as if I was peeing and if feels like my muscles and stitches are being ripped apart. Since I can’t go but it’s right there, now I just have horrible pressure there along with the other pains. I have just taken a stool softener pill, Metamucil, coffee, and milk of magnesia and I’m hoping for the best. However, there is already something there that won’t come out. Will the stool softeners soften that too, or just future bowel movements? Because if something doesn’t soften what’s already there I don’t know what I’m going to do. Please help!! My muscles there just don’t work anymore at this point. Has anyone gone through this before? Did anything work?? I’m desperate and honestly in so much pain that my husband is in tears too watching me. I feel so hopeless.