Dilemma

So I’m going through the toughest time of my life right now. It couldn’t have came at a worst time as I feel like I finally met an amazing man. Well my misery don’t like company and Imy first instinct now is to let him go and disappear until I figure things out. Not as easy as it sounds... I feel like he is my peace but I can’t help but feel like I need to remove myself right now. Im not one to want anyone’s pity or know what I’m going through. He knows a bit but doesn’t know the extent and I’m just embarrassed, mentally and emotionally exhausted.Idk if isolation will be a good move this time.... I’ve never felt for anyone he way I feel for him.Any advice?