Please help I feel like I’m losing my mind

Helene

I am at my wits end, I am desperate for help. My 5 month old never sleeps. No matter what I do during the day she won’t nap. It used to be that she’d nap on me if I nursed her and held her but I don’t even have that anymore. We put her to bed around 9 pm and she wakes up every 2-3 hours for a feeding and she’s awake for the day at 4 in the damn morning. The thing is she actually feeds when I nurse her so she’s not waking up for nothing. IF she naps during the day it’s for a maximum of 10 minutes I’m not exaggerating. I am so angry. I am so sleep deprived. I’ve done everything, swaddled, unswaddled, in the bed beside me, in her bassinet, I’ve tried holding her, in her swing, on our couch, nothing works. Even when I do hold her she just squirms and kicks and when I put her down she instantly wakes up. Every night she does this thing where she lifts her legs all the way up and slams them down????? Nobody can tell me what that is but it without fail wakes her up. If anyone has any help, please I am so beyond angry I have no idea what the hell i’m going to do. The cherry on top is that I can’t do anything without her freaking out. If I want to make breakfast with her 2 feet away from me in her high chair it lasts for 5 minutes before she starts crying. I can’t shower, brush my teeth, even go pee without her losing it if I’m not giving her all of my attention. I don’t know where I went wrong, she used to be this amazing baby that everyone was envious of because of how “good” of a baby she was and now I feel like I’m trapped because she doesn’t sleep at night, doesn’t nap during the day, and I can’t do anything except stare at her and talk to her the WHOLE DAY. Im starting to feel the resentment creeping up. I was during great handling this the first bit because I thought it was a phase. I’ve never heard of not having anything - I’ve heard of babies that don’t sleep at night but nap during the day or vice versa. I feel like I’m losing my mind. This has been going on for a MONTH. Please. Help. Cross posted in numerous categories.