Why does my baby fucking hate me

She’s 5 months old and she cries and whines all day. She cries when I put her in position to nurse. Then when someone else comes and takes her she’s fine and then handed back to me she cries. I already have ppd and my prescriptions keep getting fucked up yhis time my mom lost them and my insurance won’t cover a refill so soon so I’ve been without them for 2.5 weeks. I’m just so fucking tired of this I want a happy baby