Guys I need help...hope I will find it here.

Here it goes

My male friend is sexually attracted to me and likes me A LOT but I DON’T. When he touches me, I get really aroused but the best I have been able to allow him do is lick and finger...which he likes a lot.

The problem is, I don’t feel comfortable, better put I get ANGRY when he tries to kiss me or pull out his dick or express his love.

I also get so ashamed and angry at myself and him after allowing him to eat or finger me. I REALLY FEEL VERY ASHAMED AND DISAPPOINTED anytime that intimacy occurs ( in between...it has occurred about 5 times)

He is a great person, a good listener, generous, caring, down to earth...in all a very good person but I can’t bring myself to like or love him as he wants me to.

NB: I give in to his fingering and eating because 1. I can’t control myself when he touches and he knows it BTW I feel he takes advantage of that

2. I haven’t had a lot of sexual experiences ( I was molested by my uncle in my childhood)

3. I usually feel sorry for him. Which affects me since in the middle of the act( which he is so good at) I start to feel guilty so stops him in the middle.

I know it hurts him but I don’t know how to make it stop.

WHAT DO I DO. I JUST WANT FRIENDSHIP and nothing else.

HOW DO I LET THINGS GO BACK TO NORMAL