Yesterday was our four year anniversary. I told you "happy anniversary". You never acknowledged it, nor did you have the courtesy to reply in kind. You ignored me. I asked you if you were still "in love with me". You said "Of course I'm in love with you and I love you. You're all I think about. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. Without you I don't know what I would do." But when I told you why I felt the way I did, you ignored me! And when we went to bed you rolled over with your back to me, as far on the edge of the bed as you could get!

You have lied to me, you have hidden things from me, and you have cheated on me! I have forgiven you many times and tried to make our relationship work! You have done nothing to right the wrongs you have done or to show any empathy or remorse for any of it!

I have given so much of myself to you and all you have ever done is take. I have been hurt so much and you act like you don't care!

I wrote you a letter and told you that I am done. You'll see it when you wake up. And although I am done, there is still a part of me that hopes it will be a wake up call to you and you will WANT to change to make it work, because I love you. But honestly, I don't think it will. And that makes me incredibly sad.....

UPDATE... we've talked, or argued(whatever you want to call it). He swears it's the meds he takes for PTSD and his worrying ALL the time. He's in therapy and has been for awhile. He sent me this text today:

Sometimes I can see that he is trying, but it never seems to be enough. I know that he is struggling, but so am I and I've been there for him thru everything, giving it 110%. I just don't feel like he's giving back the same as he gets. I do love him and I want to make this work! But I won't wait forever. I'm going to give it one more try. But if he reverts back to doing nothing again, I will be done. If at any time he reverts back to ignoring ot neglecting me, no matter how much time has passed, i will walk away. But i will walk away knowing that i did everything that i could! Thank you ladies for the comments.

@Chim: Mental illness complicates everything very much! We've discussed other options besides medication with his therapist and have decided to slowly wean off all PTSD medication and to try CBD oils in it's place. We done a lot of research on it and feel that it's worth trying at this point.