Rant* I just want some 😔

We have been together four years, married three months, and have a two year old. So we are newly weds but not newly weds in a sense. And we’ve struggled with his low sex drive for a long time and I thought I was okay. But I’m not. I’m almost in tears right now I’m so uncomfortable. But I’m tired of “scheduling” sex with him. I want him to grab me and do me like when we first started dating. I’ve told him as much and he’s only done it once. But scheduling sex is just not attractive to me. But if I don’t schedule it we will go MONTHS without it. 😔 We didn’t even have sex on our wedding night. We had sex four days into our honeymoon. And it lasted 5 minutes. He went to the doctor to get medicine to help him be more aroused and didn’t want to take it on our wedding night and I’m starting to think he purposely left it at home so he wouldn’t have to take it on our honeymoon...... I just wish he found me attractive but instead all he sees is the mother of his child😔 I just wish I was noticed every now and then. I wish the vibrator was enough but even that doesn’t help anymore. I don’t even want to act like I’m interested in him anymore because that’s the only way I get a reaction out of him is to give him the cold shoulder. Any reaction is better than nothing at this point. What do I do? He hated lingerie, he has made it extremely clear he hates cuddling and I’m so embarrassed at this point I have stopped trying to try to seduce him. I won’t even undress in front of him anymore. Not like he ever looked anyways but still what’s the point in undressing in front of him if he doesn’t look or looks away? That hurt me the most was him not noticing me. I’ve brought it up to him but he doesn’t change. How can I get over this and become okay with the lack of sexual tension between us?