I didnt want this baby I was distraught and didnt know what to do. Was contemplating divorce and then this out of no where. I felt nothing but disdain and sadness for this baby. In 24 hours I found out I was pregnant and I lost the baby immediately. No matter how much I didnt want this baby I didnt want to lose it either. I accepted that I was pregnant I dont beleive in abortion. I was its mother. And now my body failed it. I will never get to feel happy about this baby because It last a day for me.