Hey ladies,

Don’t know how to start this but after 4 years and being off of birth control we are finally trying to have our second baby, my first time getting pregnant was fun and care free and had no worries in the world, now I’m 30 trying to conceive, had no fun doing it because I was more worried about doing it during ovulation, so now I’m worried my stress will affect this months trying and on top of that I have been having eye problem that’s called espicleritis, which my doctor stayed it’s common in ppl with autoimmune diseases. Now to be clear he stated it’s too soon to test and normal ppl can get this...Of course because I have severe anxiety and depression now this makes it worse and I know I haven’t been diagnosed yet but the worst things are popping up in my head. I am just really down right now, I feel hopeless, ungrateful, sad, mad, anger, almost losing faith. It seems like every time I try to triumph my anxiety and depression it makes sure I don’t over come this.... I don’t know where else to go except to vent here. I’m sorry for all of this rambling.