Help- feels like I’m going crazy

AF is 3 days late. Been testing everyday and no sign of BFP. My first pregnancy ended in April with a miscarriage and we have been trying ever since. Last time I didn’t test until a week after my period was late when I got my positive so idk if it is normal for me not to have a positive this early or not. Can anyone comment on their experiences? I have all the signs and symptoms but nothing showing up when I test. Sometimes I really feel like I’m losing my mind and I’m just convincing myself that I’m pregnant and that’s why I’m sick and having symptoms. I’m 28 and I never thought getting pregnant would ever be this hard. Every time I think about my miscarriage and the fact that I would be well into my 2/3 trimester right now I die inside all over again. Every time I see that BFN or AF I die a little more inside. I’m not okay and all my husband says is we will keep trying but I really feel like he doesn’t understand. He’s been very supportive and positive but I just can’t take this. I really feel like there’s something wrong with me and the doctors won’t test bc it hasn’t been a year of trying yet. Is this normal? I really feel like the anxiety of all of this is pushing me to the brink of insanity.

What do you guys think? Not out until AF? Or based on ovulation I should be getting a positive already so I’m likely not pregnant? I will post my cycle Below- ovulation day was confirmed with opk. Please help. I feel like I’m drowning and so alone.