Twice now

I've now had two miscarriages. And this one hit me so much harder. I would have already had a one year old at this point. And this second time I would still be pregnant. I was assaulted on the first one and I wanted to keep her but didn't. This time I was with my fiancé and now it feels like I couldn't give him what he wanted or what we wanted. On top of feeling like I dont know if I'll ever be able to have a child. And I am terrified that might be the case. I've been incredibly depressed about it for about three months now and I dont really have anyone to talk to.