i had sex the other day and the spermicide condom was left inside of me for about 6 hours til i finally got it out. i told someone i trusted but plan b and emergency contraceptives were sold out everywhere. i also started my period the day after like i was supposed to. if i end up pregnant i would keep the baby. my family loves me so much they spoil me and discipline well. if i fall pregnant i will definitely disappoint them though. i also have dealt with depression and i have major anxiety the type that makes your stomach hurt and make you have to rush to the bathroom to do either two things so dealing with that for a month before i see if i've missed my period SCARES ME. i don't have a job but i've been trying to get one for the longest to do something productive and have some responsibility and i also haven't gotten my license but i practice and i have my permit. i hope my chances of getting pregnant are low because ik that me becoming pregnant would definitely interfere with my family. and it's just a lot. i want to go to my mom for comfort and i would but the thing is she'd know exactly when i did it when it was on her time but not in there house it was in a dorm. there's just a lot racing through my mind i need guidance and advice on how to be calmer and accept that this is all in God's hands at this point, after i made that reckless decision. i had plans for when i graduate next year by to go to college and not be a mom just yet. i'm a VERY youthful teenager i don't look or act ready for a baby and yes i made the silly mistake of possibly conceiving one but i'm still an intelligent person. if God wants me to have a baby then ig that's the path i'm going down having a baby sounds scary but beautiful. my mind is just racing though i keep thinking to myself i can't have a baby.