Been TTC #2 since beginning of July and I just figured it didn’t happen yet. Started my period on Aug 25. Everything about this period has been fine and normal. Normal amount of moderate bleeding (definitely not spotting). No clots. Annoying but not debilitating cramps. My usual migraines.

But today is day 9. I made the very stupid mistake of googling it and decided to take a pregnancy test. It was positive. Now I’m mourning a pregnancy that I didn’t know I had. I’m scared of having to see a doctor and having invasive exams but I also feel like I need to know that it’s not ectopic and that if it is a regular miscarriage then it all comes out. I really don’t want a D&C because I’ve heard they’re painful. But we’re in between insurance and we just moved to a different state in June, so I’ve got to go through the whole process of finding a new doctor who I might not even be able to see long term once we figure out our insurance.

I suppose there are other options. Maybe it’s just a period! The test was a false positive! Or even better: I might be bleeding but the pregnancy might survive! I dunno.

I’m rambling now. I don’t even know what to think.

I will call a doctor tomorrow. If I feel really bad, I will go to the ER. But for tonight I’m just going to wallow and watch a movie.