Being plus size and dating skinny people

So i’ve always had low self esteem when it comes to my body and I haven’t hooked up with any guys in almost 2 years just because of my self holding me back. I have guys ask me to hangout and I always end up ghosting them because i’m too afraid of them seeing me and thinking i’m too big. I also say to myself “they wouldn’t ask me to hangout if they didn’t like what they saw” but I don’t know. all the guys I like are skinny and i’m not so I don’t know what to do. any advice helps. I really want to start hanging out with guys again, I just don’t know how to push myself to do it and not ghost them.