Is it waaaay too early?

I apologize in advance as this is going be a bit long, I just needed to vent a bit.

First week of June I matched with this cute guy on tinder and at first conversation was a bit slow, it was kinda tough getting him to open up through messages until we finally decided to go out and meet up for the first time. Right after work on a Monday he drove almost an hour to my area so we can go to a bar that was close to me (he wanted me to feel safe in an area I’m familiar with plus he didn’t want me to drive too far to see him) so we finally met and we got some food and a couple of drinks, and honestly as soon as we sat down we could not stop talking and laughing with each other. It was probably the greatest first date I’ve ever had tinder or not, and unfortunately we only got to talk for about 3 hours before I had to go to work (I work overnight) but I knew from the first 5 minutes that I wanted to see him again, so we set something up for the following weekend.

Fast forward to July 7th, we had since become inseparable so he wanted to take me out for brunch and he insisted on picking me up so we can go out and cruise a bit after eating (it was a bit random because we always met up wherever we went) so we go to brunch but I notice he’s a tad bit distracted even though we were still having a great time. We get back in his car and he’s just driving around while holding my hand then all of a sudden he says he wanted to talk to me about something (I got super nervous for some reason even though I haven’t done anything wrong lol) he was turning red, and his hands started sweating so bad it made me nervous. He then asked me to be his girlfriend 🤯😱😱 and of course I said yes. 🥳 I was over the moon and he was so relieved especially because he thought he’d scare me away thinking it’s too early, but I was totally happy about it because I really value clear communication and where I stand with someone, so him making it official was super exciting.

I’m somewhat of an introvert and I don’t like talking to people too much before I feel like I’m annoying, but we literally talk every single day. Whether it’s all day long or just a few minutes before and after I get off work, we’re literally inseparable. I see him almost every other day and then I spend the weekend with him so we’ve become routine. Friday night is always date night and even the smallest thing is amazing when I’m with him. We could literally just be watching a movie or talking and I’d be over the moon. After our first month together he got me this necklace that has two hearts intertwined and he said that when he saw it he instantly knew that it was our two hearts coming together. Things started changing about 2 weeks ago when I spent the night at his place. Because I’m so used to being up at night for work, I tend to wake up at odd hours of the night. I woke up around 5 and he was knocked tf out 😉 I laid there kinda staring at his face and then I started crying for some reason. Tears were rolling down my face when I realized damn... I’m in love with this man. I’m not an emotional person so that surprised the hell out of me. Idk what it was, but my mind was like “Woooow this guy is it. He’s too good to be true, but hold on to him sis.” Ever since then everything he does even him doing something so small like kissing my hand or my cheek when we’re cuddling just sends my heart into overdrive and I wanna tell him how I feel, but I’m scared shitless that it’s waaaay too soon and he might not feel the same way just yet which might cause him to refract just a bit.

Last week I was in Florida with my mom and sister so those 7 days were the longest we had been away from each other ever since we met, but we still spoke everyday. I came back Saturday and I saw him first thing on Sunday and things felt really different idk if I was overthinking it or it was because he missed me. The way he kissed me felt way more passionate, it was slower and so much more strategic but also felt like he doesn’t want to stop kissing me in case I disappear into thin air. Each touch was softer and every hug was tighter. We have a pretty great sex life already, but I don’t know if it’s because of my newly found feelings for him, or because I missed him... each orgasm felt better than the last. Right before I left his place yesterday he made me cum 5 times and almost went a sixth if my legs weren’t shaking so bad and I almost couldn’t fully form a breath he had to hold me and talk me through basic shit like breathing 😂 It was so unbelievable, and felt so different I’m still shook 😩 he has been telling me how much he missed me and even though he’s glad I finally got a vacation and got to rest, that week without me was so long and tough he’s glad I’m back 🥺 we have another date on Thursday before I go to work and then our usual Friday night date night but I’m lowkey stressed because idk what to do. We always have these moments after climax where we’re laying there looking at each other and blissfully kissing and cuddling that sometimes I look in his eyes and almost blurt it out. Should I tell him how I feel or wait until he says it first? Or at least until we’ve been together for 3 months? I’ve been getting really bad acid and heartburn because of it like I don’t want to push him into anything because I don’t want to lose him, but at the same time we’re always open about everything I almost feel like I’m lying to him lmao *sigh* 😪 has anyone else been through this? Help!

That’s my boo and I. He drove me an hour and a half all the way to Fort Worth for a date and it was such an amazing day ❤️

*****UPDATE*****

First things first I really appreciate everyone’s support, I would’ve loved to respond to every beautiful comment but I wasn’t expecting this many people to have gone through the same thing but I’m glad. Honestly y’all are doing amazing, I loved reading about your love stories, and it really gave me some hope for my boyfriend and I 😭🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️

So yesterday was our date night and we went to watch IT Chapter Two at this brewhouse that I knew he’d love because man+beer= ❤️ lol (Great movie, I recommend it) during the movie I started getting a migraine and by the time it was over I couldn’t see out of on eye. I had forgotten my prescription at home so he stopped by the gas station and got me some Excedrin on our way back to his place. He basically took care of me all night before we fell asleep.

Morning comes and we pretty much just cuddle and watch tv until I started getting too anxious because I had to say it or I felt like I would die 😂 he started kissing me and telling me how amazing this weekend has been, how happy he is that he doesn’t remember if he has ever felt this way before, and how lucky he is to have me in his life. I thought he was about to say it, but he didn’t. I told him I felt the same way and that I’d never want to be anywhere else but this very moment with him. I start kissing him again and then I said I had a secret I wanted to share with him but he can’t laugh at me because I have never done this before and it’s pretty big. He started sensing my nervousness so he kissed me and told me he would never. I look at him and told him that I had feelings for him, so much so that I *kiss* love *kiss* you *kiss* I could feel him smiling against my lips and without even missing a beat grabbed my face and said he loved me too before laughing and hugging me tightly. We both got quiet for a bit and then I heard him sniffle and clear his throat. No one said a word but we both started crying from the joy of finally letting it out. I asked him how long it had been since he felt this way, and he said that he’s been trying to not blurt it out for the last month and a half. I was scandalized lol but now when I look back at it I realize how many times he has tried to say it but kept it to himself and it’s truly unbelievable. If this were Grey’s Anatomy I’d say I found my person, and I’m honestly over the moon and all the other galaxies in bliss. It’s so weird thinking that I found someone who made me fall in love, but here we are 😁

Thank y’all for the kind words for real. It was really helpful ❤️