Stillbirth

My heart is heavy right now. As of this week I was 26 weeks with my baby girl April. It wasn't until I went to my follow up appointment on Wednesday that I found out my baby did not have a heart beat.

I'm stuck wondering why, why me, why if she was coming into this world to parents that love her dearly, parents that would do anything for her.

I'm sad, angry, and hurt. I often wonder could I have done anything differently to stop this from happening?

Now, all I'm left with are a lot of questions left unanswered.

I'm left with the pain of giving birth to my beautiful baby but knowing I can't bring her home.

I'm left with a memory box.

I'm left with the hope that one day I'll be able to see her again.

I'm left with a life without her.

I'm left with the thought that my first baby did not make it.

I'm left with a heartache that will never go away.

April I love you 💝

Thank you all for the prayers and support. I have read each message and truly appreciate each one.

I'm laying my baby to rest today and I'm having such a hard time. Left her with a blanket and pictures of mommy and daddy during happier times. I love you so much April 💝