As a 40 year old who tried for years to get pregnant and had multiple losses I was expecting to be on cloud nine when my little E finally arrived and made me the mother I always wanted to be. Sadly on week 3 I crashed and burned I was so overwhelmed and terrified I could barely function. I convinced myself that having a baby was the worst thing and in my distress state thought about adoption. I just couldn’t see how I could care for this beautiful tiny human. I had no clue what she needed and was convinced I was doing it wrong. What really surprised me was how much I missed my old life, my old happy life where I knew what I was doing. I came to realise that grieving my old life was something I had to do. I got help from my GP - medication and therapy. Today me and my little lady are snuggled on the sofa having a lazy afternoon and I simply couldn’t be happier. I love this girl with all of me, I would die for her. To anyone else who is too scared to say that they are not coping or finding motherhood overwhelming - seek help, talk to your friend and family. You are not a bad mother some of us just need help adjusting to the massive change 💗💗💗