Help?

Okay so this is my first post on this app and I saw so many helpful posts and replies so I figured I’d give mine a shot on here and see if anyone can offer advice? So when I was younger I was able to masturbate and orgasm no problem and it felt great but then I got into my first relationship when I was 17 and he raped me and was sexually abusive our whole relationship until I finally had the courage to leave. I went through a lot of trauma and depression for so long afterwards because of it and now whenever I try to masturbate or have sex with my current partner it just doesn’t feel the same. Like I can’t orgasm anymore? I mean it still feels good but there’s no release just the build up if that makes sense? Is this normal? What can I do to fix this problem?