I think that these 6 weeks and postpartum is harder than pregnancy! Harder than labor and birth!

I am on anti-depressants I upped the dose I wish i didn't!

I had to take a xanax because I had a panic attack, I have no appetite and wine is what uve been self medicating with because I just CANNOT relax my brain or body! I feel so insane and it sucks that the people around me just don't understand... I am 3 weeks PP I went out and did yoga today hoping that i would feel better but no it actually just made me feel worse about my bills that I'm 2 months behind on... My fiance cant help honestly no one can really help me... I just want to run away from myself get out of my head

I know I will get some responses that disagree with what I'm doing but thats fine you may state your opinion! This is one if those things where you don't know unless you are or have gone through it. 😭