So the other night this dude came to hangout with me and my bestie n her boo. She sat in her boo's lap on the couch, and tols me to sit in the other dudes lap. So i did bc i didn't wanna seem awkward af. Me n him aint really talk much. My friend made a joke bout how we should makeout bc it was obvious we wanted to. I didnt want to, but i kissed him anyways. Trying to keep kissing and that kinda shit at a minimal without him getting pissed, this was the first time i met him. Anyways, he kept making jokes about us going to a room and fucking me n shit. And every time, I'd say nah, in some form of way. Eventually my bestie n her boo went into the other room. And me and the dude were just laying down. I was laying on top of him just chilling fr, he told me multiple times "we dont got to if u dont want" and id tell him thank u for that. Then he started tryna play with my 🐱 and I told him "u can play with me but that does NOT mean we r going to fuck." I told him to get on top of me so it was more comfortable for his hand or whatever . As soon as i told him that he takes his pants n boxers off. And i even told him that id just said it wasnt happening. And he started to go to put it in. Before he could i asked if he was clean, bc i was scared. I didnt wanna do it but i didnt know how to stop it. I didnt scream at him or push him off of me, cuz i didnt think it would do anything except make it a bad situation. I only realized last night that i didnt exactly consent to it.

Sorry for the long post. I just dont feel like i have a right to classify it as "rape" bc it wasnt severe. But to me it felt like it