So I had a baby almost a year ago and I had plans on opening my home daycare back up! I used to love it. But now that’s it’s come time to actually start interviews and such, I don’t want to do it. I actually cry because I don’t want to. My boyfriend has been taking care of the money this whole time, but I know he needs help me.

I feel so depressed lately I don’t want to get out of bed. I can’t image myself working all day, plus doing everything for baby and around the house, AND cooking. I’ve been getting a lot of anxiety about my daycare interviews and have be wanting to cancel on parents...I keep finding excuses as to why I shouldn’t do them and my boyfriend is starting to get frustrated.

I feel so bad, but I just can’t. Idk if it’s because I’m depressed or what? I need advice. How can I figure this out? I have interviews starting tomorrow!

I planned my whole daycare out where I do all this extra stuff with the kids (crafts, sensory activities, healthy homemade food, dramatic play, etc.) but now the thought of all that on top of what I already do, I feel overwhelmed. I just don’t want to do it! I’m thinking I should cancel the interviews I have (they’re all for one day a week anyways) and then readvertise, charge almost half what I am now, and just dont do much with the kids. Unless I want to or feel like it that day. That way I’m not overwhelmed.

I keep thinking of different ideas of things I can do from home where I don’t have to socialize. I even thought about making cakes, but I don’t even know where to start or have the money to start!

Idk...thoughts? Please don’t judge!