so i saw his boner yesterday for the first time, keep in mind this isnt my first time seeing one, but seeing one on him, well.... that hit a little different. i’ve encountered several poor physical and emotional relationships. i can be a real pushover sometimes, like a door mat (hopefully im using pushover correctly) and i’ve been on my own, sorting my thoughts, for almost a year now. i had been nonstop talking about “my man who isnt actually my man” and someone even asked me “so he’s not just trying to fuck” and i was so happy and relieved to say “no”. he’s a teenage boy i get it, and he cant control it, also understandable, but i guess what really hit me was that it was finally shown that he has a physical attraction to me (im assuming). i dont know if he likes me for just my body, or is just attracted to my personality, or both. i don’t know how to approach this with him because it makes me uneasy not knowing his side. i really dont like assuming but my anxiety triggers my depression and i can’t have that happening🕷👄🕷

ignore his poor grammar, his fones broken, but he seems to really care. i just dont know if he’s like this other guy who only fucked me to fuck me, or if he genuinely likes every aspect of me. if you can give some insight on how i should approach this pls lmk🥺