Help....

First time mom. 2 week old baby. Married for 10 months. (Found out I was pregnant a week after we got married)

I am suffering from PPD. I know I am. I suffered from depression as a teenager and know the signs. I am currently looking for a therapist that I can talk to within my insurance. Since March this year the 2 people who I considered my best friends have not had any contact with me. They blew me off and disappeared on me. (Turns out they didnt really like me and only hung out because none of their other friends were free) so suffice to say my pregnancy was pretty lonesome. I tried making new friends but I felt myself slipping into a pit everyday. The put is only deeper now.

My husband is great around me. He listens when i need to talk, holds me as I cry, helps me feel a little like myself again.... but I just found out he has been feeling down in the dumps himself...... I woke up randomly and he wasnt in bed. Or the bathroom. So I went looking. I found him in the dark living room just staring at the wall. Turns out he does this every night. He wont talk to me and tell me what is wrong. All I know is he doesnt feel like himself and he goes out to sit and think.... he doesnt cry around me, and it is so hard for me to get him to open up to me on a good day. What do I do? I feel like a horrible mother already, and now I feel like a horrible wife because I didnt even know this was happening...... he hides it so well, and I just dont know what to do anymore.... I just feel so lost and hopeless right now.