I can't do this every month. My relationships suffer, my work suffers, my brain is fogged so badly I can barely form sentences. My anxiety is so bad I can barely leave the house. Why do I have to do this every month? This isn't any way to live life. So anxious that I feel sick, so held captive that I can't perform as an employee, a mom, a wife, a friend, a human being. I just want to close my eyes until it's over.