Think I’m pregnant. Not sure how I feel

I have 3 kids from my previous relationship. 15,12,7 and my baby to my now relationship. Which is amazing, I love all my kids I also have 2 step daughters which we see every holiday and every weekend.

However, I’ve been on noriday and missed 1 day. I’ve came off the pill now since Sunday and haven’t had any bleeding. I have nausea and slightly tender breast. I’ve “felt” pregnant with my 3 older kids, but didn’t know with my 4th.

I’m just really scared. I’m only 32. I’m just not sure how I feel right now, im scared to test incase I am.

I also have mental health problems stemmed from my previous relationship which I’m working on.

My baby was also prem and spent 6 weeks in intensive care.

Aw man I don’t know how I feel right now