My anxiety!!!

You guys my anxiety is insane idk what to do! I have not left my baby once and my husband wants to go away for the day and I can’t leave the baby. Lol anxiety medication did not work for me. Everyone soemone is holding the baby I felt scared and picture them dropping her! Heck I do that with myself even! I always picture the worst things, worry about everything to the extreme, idk what to do anymore!im not joking and I know some moms will judge me but I won’t let anyone hold my through flu season or if you smoke.. because of ny anxiety