hard morning..

I just had my son, he was born at 26 weeks and 5 days. I had sever preeclampsia and they had to deliver him via c section on Monday. They moved me from Labor and Delivery to the postpartum unit last night to get me ready to leave to go home, but i keep hearing everyone else’s babies cry and it keeps making me more and more depressed. i have only seen my son once since he was delivered and he won’t be coming home with me until around Christmas if we are lucky. The nurses when i got up to my room gave us a packet and they said there’s stuff in our room we get to take home with us. I’m needing some advice or just some words of encouragement if possible. i’m a first time mom, and this is just absolutely killing me. i feel like i’m failing my son, i just want to wrap him up and take him home with us. i’m just really struggling right this moment.