There's this one song that makes me cry really hard and that's the Proclaimers 500 miles. People usually laugh and sing along but for me it's a reminder that I'm not good enough for him. We're are best friends now even after he left me and I still have feelings for him. I told him how I felt recently. He thinks I'm amazing, smart, and beautiful but he's just has no romantic feelings towards me. I know I should get over him I just don't know how, we're so close and I don't want to give up our friendship and neither does he. Just after a year and a half I long for the throbbing pain and stabbing to go away every time he mentions some one else's name or when this song starts to play. Maybe one day I'll hear this melody and smile, knowing that I am enough.