Relationship break down. Please help
Hi there. I really don't know what to do here. I have been with my bf for 8 years and we now have a 10month old baby girl. I've been on and off with him for some time and moved out countless times and came back. His temper is foul. He's a lovely guy most of the time but what's driving me away is his temper. We had an argument a few weeks ago and he soaked me with his drink before standing up coming towards me, nose to nose, spitting through his teeth while he angrily went off it with me. He was shouting his head off infront of our little girl. He slammed the door as hard as he could off me as I walked away. That's nothing to the stuff he's done in the past. He's slapped me repeatedly over the head and bounced me around the house. He thinks because he didn't actually punch me that it doesn't count. On holiday he got drunk and started shouting loads of abuse at me while we passed crowds of people to get back to the villa. He then picked me suitcase up and threw it out the window down three flights. I could see the whites of his eyes. All this aside I have bowel disease and find I'm always tired. Since having our daughter it's always me who gets up at 5am and looks after her all day. Don't get me wrong I love having every minute with her. He gives her the odd bottle during the night as he doesn't go to bed till 3am usually so it's no skin off his nose. While on holiday a few days ago she woke up during the night really crying, she was full of cold. I saw him bounce out of the bed, swearing and fuming. He made his way towards her before I got out of bed and told him to fuck off. I don't feel like I can trust him with her. I literally do everything for her so expecting him to do her one feed during the night isnt asking for much. He left her sat in her own poo and crying when she couldn't sleep. He does not lift a finger at home either. I got up at 5:20am yesterday morning on our last day of holiday. I single handedly packed all our cases including baby feeding items which is alot, looked after our baby, entertained her till he managed to drag his arse out of bed. Came back home, I have unpacked everything, washed everything and looked after her. Came down this morning and he couldn't even wash a few pots up. I'm beyond tired looking after him and his 2 children to another. I get no help what so ever. His 2 children don't say hello to me and are all for my daughter. Same goes for his family. I was left to book her christening on my own. I booked the venue, church, caterer and got all the personalised invites. I wanted 2 god parents but ended up compromising for 4 because he wanted his mate he never sees to be involved. So I picked my brother and my partners sister originally. Then the extra 2 where his mate and my brothers fiancé. There was a massive stink because he has 2 sisters so the one I asked to be godparent said she wasn't doing it unless her sister was a god parent too. Obv this is scandless and caused a huge argument because I wouldn't do it to suit her or anyone. I thought it was selfish and the whole christening was made to be about the other sister. So anyway my bf got wind that the church I booked wasn't Catholic so the whole things been cancelled. His family haven't spoke a word to me. I feel like would be easier if I went my own way. I feel broken at the thought of having to share our daughter but its making me ill here. I never stop or get any help. I have completely lost any sex drive and I've been that way for months, I am quiet and have very little to say to him. I'm up to my eyes in debt because I spend everything I have buying for my baby, clothes and nappies ect. He buys her food now and then. Any help would be appreciated.
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