Happy Angelversary

Happy angelversary to My angel baby 💙

Everytime someone asks..."is this your first" I think of you. I also struggle between telling this perfect stranger if I should give the honest answer "No, but he is our first living child that we have brought home".

I hate that I have to decide: Can they handle it? Do they need to know? Am I emotionally ready to answer this?

Or do I just simply say "yes, he is".

As hard as this question is for me, it also makes me smile because I think of you and for a moment, I have a chance to talk about you 💙

Grief knows no bounds but thank God Love knows no bounds either.

Love cannot be measured in time, weeks, ultrasounds, or breaths.

Loss is not just a story of grief but also of love and celebration.

I want to talk about you. I so desperately want to be asked about you so I can.

Because the truth is you're on my mind every day. I think of you with every gust of wind that I feel on my face, everytime I see a rainbow in the sky, everytime I see my husband and your little brother, every morning when I wake up, and every evening I pray for you.

How amazing that the almighty father gets to raise you in heaven. One day we will be together again and you'll welcome me with open arms. I'll get to see your face, hear your voice, and feel your hug 💙

But today I'll hold your little brother Vincent in my arms extra tight as I hold you in my heart 💙 because I love you! Immensely unconditionally and forever

Love, your mommy