Just friends

At first we both agreed to be friends with benefits and then we dated for a short period of time. Due to him cheating and me just doing the most tbh because I couldn’t trust him. So we decided to just call it quits stop sleeping together & try and move on. I did move on after some time got a new job & continued school. Now after some time we reconnected again and I still find myself with those same feelings and I pushed it away. Surprisingly he decided to ask what we are and I said just friends with benefits or just friends. Idk why I said that but I did. It hurt and then when I was with him I decided to leave his house instead of spending the night. Again it hurt to do that. Any advice I don’t want to hurt him