Pregnancy is supposed to be exciting, right?

I’ve been very sick for about a month now. After numerous negative at home test and negative blood test first week of August I’m like what the hell is going on with me, just to find out I’m 6 weeks pregnant. Now I don’t know how to feel about it. My significant other is telling me I’m selfish and we should end this pregnancy because of the PCOS and being a high risk pregnancy and how google has told him the chances of baby not making it past 12 weeks. There’s always the WHAT IF coming out of his mouth and it’s making me think twice about even moving forward with the pregnancy. I have my first OB appointment Monday and I don’t even want him to go with me... I’m numb to this all and can’t process it. This is supposed to be a happy time and instead I’m so stressed out!!! Please say a special prayer for me!!! 😥