I feel like i was robbed yet again from feeling child birth. I know it sounds so dumb and stupid to most.

This is my third pregnancy. My first was a vaginal delivery but my second due to my daughter not in position when my water broke I had a c-section.

I’m not saying that c-section is not birth because it is. But i wanted to feel the pain of delivering i wanted to actually do it vaginal.

But today my doctor at 33 weeks told me he won’t do it after I had asked him if he did it and was told he did. And my husband doesn’t even understand why I’m so heart broken. Like this isn’t what i wanted and i get all the risks but why....

I just really needed to vent. I needed to tell someone how i feel...