Confused 🤷🏻‍♀️

Sooo I had sex with my boyfriend and the condom broke. I freaked out because I’m 19 and I’m sooo not financially ready for a baby. Me and him have been together for 2 months. I took a test (I still have to wait until my missed period) and it was negative... I’m kinda disappointed...? I think I’m disappointed. I really don’t get why I’m disappointed, I would LOVE to start a family but I know right now it’s the best time to have one.