ugh babies

as we just found out my mommom is sick, and most likely won’t make it through much longer than a year.. i’ve never wanted to be pregnant anymore than i do right now and my hubs and i have been trying to two and a half years 😣

selfishness is kicking in because my cousin who was never around our whole lives, had her baby and i’m jealous about it. i grew up just always kinda thinking she’d be there for those moments in my life