I’ve been with my S/O 3 years total and married going on a year and a half with our second baby on the way. We have had so many ups and downs and I’ve always had faith that we would get through anything and make it work. He’s had a pretty bad drinking problem in the past, nowadays he jus sneaks a few drinks in here and there but in the past it used to be bottles on top of bottles being hidden around our house , so i guess i can say it’s gotten better. I appreciate him slowing down a lot and him taking relapse classes. My biggest issue is the sneaking around and LYING. He goes long periods without drinking but when he gets the urge to have one and i catch him he lies to my face about it and will fight with me til we can’t fight anymore to prove his innocence and put it in my head that I’m crazy idk what I’m talking about etc. Then the next day when things have cooled down I’ll ask again was i rly crazy or did Yu do what i know yu did? And he will finally admit . I HATEEEE that I’m married to someone who would rather lie and fight and drag fights on than to be honest, we have had so many unnecessary fights bc he refuses to have me right in ANY circumstance that he knows he is wrong.

Besides that our second biggest issue is him not understanding what it means to communicate. I’ve yelled I’ve used soft voice I’ve cried I’ve done everything to try and get my point across to him to settle problems. Everything seriously goes in one ear and out of the other. And turns into a tit for tat battle once i say how i feel. I hate it so much its made me so distant. Everything is a fight always. It’s never two adults sitting down having a convo to solve what’s going on. I mean we do have civil ones but the bad outweighs the good convos. He’s a serious hot head you say anything he don’t like his anger issues show quick. And I’m not the type to jus sit and obey and be quiet I’m gonna say how i feel about his behavior every time but that jus makes things worse. No we don’t get physical his fave thing is yelling breaking our things damaging stuff in the house , I’m over it !!!!!!! I’m 26 and i feel like is this worth it it seems like nothing works except for being FAKE happy . I don’t wana be fake happy i don’t wana be happy for a few days then back to not speaking to each other for a few days more it’s so childish this marriage is childish asf i jus don’t have it in me to have faith in it no more ;( SORRY for the rant