Rape/Molestation

I’ve been raped 3 times once by a family friend(i was 7) once by my brothers friend(i was 15) once by my step moms brother (12) i was also molested by my step brother (i was 13) I’ve been fighting depression for almost 5 years I’m 16 and had 6 suicide attempts i cut my left thigh so no one will see the scars I’m mentally and physically broken but i don’t show it I’m suffering in silence I’ve only told 3 people about these situations and one of those people threw it in my face saying I probably begged them to do this stuff to me I haven’t told anyone in my family because I’m scared there not going to believe me because i waited to long to tell them 😞