I’m going to start this off to when it all began.. it was freshman year and I started going to school with this boy and I thought he was cute and then I found out he was my neighbor like he lives 5 steps away from me. So we started dating and we dated for about 6 months I lost my virginity to him. Then we broke up because I was too clingy and I was selfish so we broke up and he dated other people and I didn’t really date anyone I just talked to people. But while he was dating other people he would text me or call me whenever they would be going through something and I would be crawling right back. So all 4 of my high school years I was chasing after him and all I wanted was him. We recently got back together in January and it was amazing. But these past couple of months have just been emotional abuse and toxic. He calls me names when he gets mad and breaks up with me and he’s super controlling. Remember, he’s still my neighbor, we went to school together and graduated and now that I’m getting a job at amazon he wants to work there too and I just feel like he is really insecure that I’m going to be with someone else or I’m just gonna be happy in general idk what it is. But to make a long story short I just feel like this relationship is toxic and unhealthy and i feel like I lost all my confidence I gained weight and I just feel drained from everything and everyone. I’m 18 and I just want to start my life and do the things I wasn’t able to do when I was in high school because I was constantly chasing after him. He loves me more than I love him and I know that but everyone he breaks up with me I get sad so I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I just need someone to talk to who will understand where I’m coming from Because I honestly need it, thank you.