almost been 2 months...

Well, I’ve talked to my boyfriend multiple times. We have had sex once in the past 2 months almost. I ask him almost every day if he wants to have sex. He always said maybe later, or tomorrow, or the weekend. But he’s never in the mood. He says he’s stressed about work and he’s super depressed. Well Monday his job let him go, though he’s had a job lined up already but the company just started so he’s only part time right now. He says he’s not as depressed because he’s not at his old job anymore.. i know its only been a few days but i want love. I don’t want to feel like I’m begging him to make love to me. I have been so miserable because for the past 2 months, after my boyfriend goes to bed i master bate with my vibrator. He doesn’t know about how many times or that I’ve been doing it when he goes to sleep but its just building up. Im depressed as well. I lost my job and have been jobless for 2 1/2 months and applying to many jobs every day... but i still want to make love to the man i love.. lately he’s been giving me kisses and cuddling a little more, but he never wants to make out, gets mad when i rub his dick, kiss his neck.. anything sexual at all... he says he’s not in the mood and he’s stressed, depressed, tired. Those are all the reasons. I feel shitty. Its boring master bating when you have someone you are completely in-love with sleeping next to you every night... he is my world. I know he loves me but i don’t think he really knows how much its hurting me...even if i try to tell him.

Okay so few hours later: i found a bunch of saved porn and girls pages on his reddit. He told me he’s too depressed to have sex yet he’s master bating a-lot it seems like. Even though i asked him if he had the last 2 months and he said no. We had a huge fight about the same thing months ago. He was master-bating all the time cause he didn’t want to put in the effort into sex and to get me off because he’s tired and depressed. And i checked the time of the videos one isnt even from 24 hours ago.