At a loss

So this is my only place of refuge. I have no friends and I feel alone most of the time. I pray in search for a purpose for an answer. I pray for others in hopes of clearing my mind. But today I feel like everything is crumbling down right before me. I know I have a purpose but today I realize how alone I truly am. I’ve prayed for resignation for peace for comfort for a purpose but I feel so far from all of it. I have no one to talk to. No one to trust with my heartaches with my worries. I sit here crying in hopes that I might find an answer.