Hey ladies, I am a second time mom. Feeling like I’m pregnant for the first time again!!!

I have no idea how far along I am.y guess-tamit is 5 weeks.

My first positive came back, and the next morning I started bleeding. Full on period bleeding 7 days straight. Thought for sure I was miscarrying.

Then my hopes were brought up very high because my HCG levels were being monitored... first came back 16. Alright for sure miscarriage, that isn’t even a positive for pregnancy. Started grieving. But the next one came back. And had RISEN!!! Not doubled though, so still my hopes were high... but I knew something could still be wrong.

They continued to rise, but my second to last results almost tripled! I felt relieved and so happy! I started planning for breast feeding and wondering if I was having a boy this time or another girl. Then my last test came back and had dropped 12 numbers! WTF?! My doctor says he was confused with rising HCG levels, but is now sure it’s what he thought... miscarriage! He wants me to wait a full WEEK to get tested again! Dude.... I’m dying here. I need to know ASAP if they are possibly rising again or if my hopes are way too high and I’m in denial. I still feel pregnant, which is the weirdest thing for me to say because I feel like it could be mind over matter. But I’m NOT BLEEDING OR CRAMPING LADIES!!!!😩 I do not believe I’m miscarrying.

I’m in denial aren’t I? 😔 I can’t help but to keep my hopes high... and keep praying over this little monkey... I just feel like it’s going to be crushing when I see my new results low as heck😐 Ugh. And they won’t do a flipping ultra sound because my levels aren’t high enough!!!! 😭😭